Can run but you can't hide

I've been doing good. Been busy, working a bit.. always good.. just got my first paycheck so least they are legit.
My relationship is going good, and I'm gonna enjoy it while it lasts, cause I just saw a picture on someone's list of favorite things and I cried.  Guess I know now why I will go back and forth from dating to single.  I'm always gonna find some reason to end a good thing.. cause I don't want to be taken when he is ready. Why don't I just stay single??? Because I can't take the lonliness. I crave to be told I am beautiful and loved... To see the desire in someone's eyes, to feel the touch of their fingers, lips.. etc. And it just proves that he deserves better, someone stronger, someone loyal. I'm so sorry.

I can finally say it!!!

I'M TAKEN!! I went out with Nathan again yesterday.. and after a wonderful afternoon.. he said that I was amazing and he really wanted to see where things can go.. then he said.. and I quote. "I want you to be my girl. Please be mine"
Yes.. I melted. Ther is something really wonderful about hearing a man call you "mine" while looking into your eyes.. And he's dominant to boot.. score!

I am looking for faults though.. cause no one is this perfect.. but seriously he loves video games, table gaming like D&D, puzzles!!!!!, The Princess Bride and all of Mel Brooks' other movies.  He has been married and divorced.. but his ex-wife passed away (took her life) last november.

So anyways.. I'm all twitterpated.

Hanging out with Karma today.. playing Lego Indiana Jones again, she is really good at that game.. atm she is on her Ipad mini playing one of her many apps. So mommy gets some computer time yay.

Oh and epic fail bout 30 min ago.  Had warmed up the rest of my red lobster birthday dinner to eat for lunch.. shrimp scampi, garlic grilled shrimp and rice pilaf.. and one of the cheddar bay biscuits.. yup pure heaven... Well I was talking on the phone .. (to Nathan :P) and was walking through the kitchen with my warmed up togo box from red lobster when I stepped in a puddle of water I didn't know was there and .2 secs later was looking up at the ceiling with my ankle throbbing in pain.. and my lunch.. is all over the floor!
I salvaged the garlic grilled shrimp, but had to throw the rest away and vaccum up a lot of rice.

Course it was kinda sweet when Nathan heard I twisted my ankle he said "Then I know the first thing I'm gonna do when I see you this afternoon" reply. "Oh what's that?" "give you and ankle rub" "awwww".. He he.. yeah sorry I'm gushing.

GREAT DAY

Day started out great, good friend of mine swung by and took me to breakfast, and then I was just relaxing at home for a bit, which was great. Got a call for a work order while out with D. 221 bucks for 10 hours deep cleaning a house. I said oh yeah!

So finally met one of the guys from okc (okcupid) that I talked to first.  He is a really great guy.. we got chinese food and watched The Princess Bride. Both of us have seen it a few dozen times.
I had a really great time with him.. and he seemed to think I was gorgeous.. It was really great to be able to look a guy in the eyes and see the attraction, something I've craved for a long time.


My little girl had a good day and a good visit with her speech therapist Clarice. She is making great progress.. and just a few sentances from Clarice, she was able to grasp the concept of taking a break from a frustrating video game.  So she is coping better with those.  Got her homework all done and after her 15 min on xbox playing LEGO: Indiana Jones and the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull, I said ok time for your bath, 5.2 secs later she was nude and in the tub.. no water even in it yet lol.

Another Year Gone

Ok, so maybe not too on top of this atm.. but hey.. two posts in the same month, that has to be an accomplishment right??

Ok, so got a part time job cleaning houses, pay is decent.. if I can get enough work. No benefits though.. and Independent contracting kinda sucks come tax time.. but it's a job.

Today is my b-day... I don't feel a year older.. no one ever does.. but.. when I look back over the last year... yeah.. 31 sucked! 32 will be much better.. I hope..

So a friend suggested I join one of the free online dating sites... I thought, what the hell? No mind blowingly great guy yet, but the guy who is taking me to dinner tonight for my b-day is actually pretty cool.. little older than me, no worries.. but pretty much a confirmed bachelor.. but he's fun to hang out with at least.. and he likes my cooking... that's Step 1 right? I was actually kinda shocked by the responses I've been getting.. course one guy who opened with .. "I want to ...... inside you.. " yeah dickhead got a nasty reply.. I mean really?!?! The nerve of some people will never cease to amaze me seriously...


So that's bout it.. stay tuned ... but don't hold your breath.. ((I would hate to have deaths on my hands lol))

Distance makes the Heart grown fonder

Or so they say.. I know it's been awhile since I posted.. good news is that the shitastic year of 2012 is over.. I spent 9 months of it without my little girl.. but finally made it back to her.. My best friend got away from the dickhead ... course it was after he prostituted her and nearly killed her.. and raped an 8 year old little girl... yes he is in prison now.. it's the only reason she's away now. But she is doing good.. got a better man.. and pregnant again..

Me I am living with my ex actually.. we finally were able to have the "why we broke up" conversation.. were able to realize that we make better friends than lovers.. but that we can at least be roommates for our daughter's sake while I get on my feet.

I am in the process of finding a job.. but.. do have an interview on Wed.. hoping I get it... would be a great boost.

I plan on making 2013 a great year.. 13 is my lucky number after all.

Got a few goals..
Want to lose 50 lbs this year.. well 50 more.. I've already lost 20..
Want to get closer to my goal of culinary school,
Hope to get a car
Get back in touch with my pen pals
And get Goddess Creations up and running with my friend Amby.
And most of all.. actually use this blog for a change. lol